to: bearbie

don know when bearbie will visit n write in the blog again le. since his last post until now still nv write anything over here. today mood not very good. maybe coz feel a bit that mx n jamie like anti mi like that. talking among themselves onli than nv share we me. than keep going anywhere together but nv call me. so feel a bit weird. than keep bully me n make me to be alone. that well will suddenly feel so stress, sad, not happy n all the bad mood. than that day jamie promise me to go shopping with me aft todays work but end up she don wan to go le. when we go hom that time is drizzlingly than walk very long way to orchard mrt station. actually wan go shopping alone but end up no mood plus a bit tired jiu nv go le. take mrt home with them. actually expect him to accompany me go orchard walk walk n shopping de coz i really nv walk walk at orchard before, so like a little bit blur n sotong ma. but he say he not free. he told me yesterday that he going out with friends during aftnoon n nite play ball since he so long nv play le but end up he come my house here find me but my parents at home. also nv let me know that he is coming n nv ask me my parents at home or not jiu come le. than later he reach n call me, told him that my parents at home, he jiu go home le. make me feel guilty n make me feel that i very stupid, nv tell him my parents at home n make him come down all the way from city hall. than make my mood go worse. come home, bath finish already very tired le, parents n sister still nagging all the way. make me fed up n mood goes bad. bearbie ask me whether he can work tmr or not? i say anything, but tell him we nv meet on thursday. give him the hint that not to work for his friend le, when he ask me that time, i already talk to him at a bu shuai yu qi le means don wan him to work. but end up, he say yes to his friends. make me very angry. than later ask him to tell his friend don wan to work aft a few mins but his friend nv reply. so now also don know wat to do le. when i am writing this don know why feel like crying n cry out when i write until half way n continue to write until the end. than now don care, die die also wan him to meet me tmr n meet me earlier earlier le. today went to work, coz too early than no bus so walk to the mrt station n walk a long way to there coz got constrution working. nearly sprain my ankles when i work until half way. but at the end onli so scratch than work that time don know why cut until my and also don know but luckly just a small cut so nvm. than don know why my neck also got problem. maybe scratch until got scratch over there than very painful maybe po bi le. until now don know wat bearbie is doing. today he din really msg me much n make me feel really weird...

*I AM SO TIRED NOW N WAITING FOR HIM TO REACH HOME EARLY TO SLEEP WITH ME COZ TODAY WAKE UP VERY EARLY SO NOW VERY TIRED LE...

by:bearmie - lonely now

the love land arrived @ 11:30 PM.

no longer same as the past. 我已不是从前那个了！